Inept

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the majority of my method for handling this bullshit is to make lists. I have a to-do list in Google Tasks for every day of the week, which is really just the latest iteration of the to-do lists I’ve been making since I was nineteen. When I get like this, practically the only thing I don’t put on the list is “inhale and exhale regularly”. Meals go on the list. “Answer email” goes on the list. “Watch television” goes on the list. I literally have a note in my to-do list right this minute that says “Watch last week’s White Collar”. And another that is an enumeration of the dinner delivery order I’m going to place when I get home. Because when I get home I’ll be all “Ordering dinner is too complicated. I’m going to eat carrots and butterbread. Again.” But it is payday and pizza is delicious, so I deserve a hot meal while I “Watch this week’s White Collar”.

Yes. Last week’s White Collar and this week’s White Collar are two separate items on my to-do list. Because the little tiny drip of dopamine I get from crossing something off my to-do list is WORTH IT, that’s why.

And the upshot is that while I may be continually exhausted until this passes off, when it does I will have held it the fuck together and will not be behind on bills or have an empty refrigerator or two weeks of dishes in the sink.

Survival! It’s awesome!